apophasis
by Jonathan Chan
letting in an absence: the unfilled
blanks of consequent months, no
sheer sense of where or what, black
and white blocks a rorschach test
of sterner inklings. i follow only that
great unknowing: the murk of the
year ahead, or two, the glimmers
that light each paltry step, the
brief flash of firmer realisation, the
flickering filament of hours past. how
then does a life feel more like rumour
than reality? how then does attention
insist against the suspense of formless
habits and fading routines? pause
for the forgotten gifts of breath,
release, and faithful dependence.
Jonathan Chan is a writer, editor, and graduate student at Yale University. Born in New York to a Malaysian father and South Korean mother, he was raised in Singapore and educated in Cambridge, England. He is interested in questions of faith, identity, and creative expression.
